Two Steps Forward

When does Work begin? When the hammer hits the nail’s head? When the first bead of sweat drips from your face? Does it begin before the work begins? Since training with Double Edge this summer, questions like these have left me pondering for hours. Therefore, when asked to write an essay expressing the importance of […]

The Spirit is Willing, The Flesh is Weak

The summer I will always remember as THAT summer, was the summer of As Tall as Lions, Pabst Blue Ribbon and self-discovery. I was working as an assistant stage manager at a local professional theatre that was supposed to be a foot in the door to a lucrative cross-country career, had I not squandered the […]

Everything I Am Becoming, I Already Am

The current projects folder on my new mac is full of half-written essays. Reading over these unfinished missives, it’s clear they are trying to say the same thing. Only that unalienable truth, that kernel of wisdom, is evasive– a mystery to my conscious mind, swimming just below the surface. Heads Up started as an idea, a […]

The Hardest Thing I’ve Done…

I trace the droplet of sweat from the center of my forehead and down the end of my nose to where it hits the floor. It gathers on my back, just below the waistband of my pants. My knees lock like twigs about to snap. I know I’m supposed to be doing something, but for […]

Do or Do Not. There is No Try.

A few months ago, on The Huffington Post, I read an article by the media maven herself, Arianna Huffington, about the crisis in our country and how politicians want to be “caught trying” to do something.  That is, they want to talk about the problems, “seem concerned” and leave a paper trail to prove it.  […]

This Place is a Prison…

“This Place is a Prison… “ –The Postal Service One question we received during our initial staged reading of 1,000 Hills was, “who are the people telling the story?” We lacked a framing device to properly contextualize our script. Preparing for the reading, my research focused on the genocide itself. Between the Tutsi people and […]

Here Comes the Sun

Darkness swallows everything in its path – without exception. I see depression everywhere; my friends and neighbors, the economy, even the entire state of the nation seems affected. Perhaps it’s the weather. (Seasonal affective disorder [SAD] is particularly common in areas with little sunlight. And, in case you haven’t looked outside, the grey Ohio sky […]

The Post-Undergraduate Actor, Part 1: Reality Check

The end of college is a new beginning—for most people.  On my part, it was the continuation of agreements I made with my family.  I am the first of my father’s sons to graduate, which carries a bit of pride.  (My father had a lot of hope riding on me since I was the last […]

The Impulse to Move

Before Benjamin and I ventured “on the road,” I had the opportunity to participate in one of New World Performance Laboratory’s Performance Ecology Workshops (PEW).  The universe, it seems, is always providing clues to your true ‘self,’ only by opening your awareness do these clues become visible.  The workshop helped reveal my innermost impulse – […]

What I Learned from Heads Up Productions

I’ve been performing for quite a few years and have always thought of myself as a pretty good actor.  Working with Heads Up, my eyes have been opened.  I’ve discovered more in these last few months than in all my years of acting– both as an actor and as a person. I usually tend to […]